to see this beautiful flower meadow. I hardly knew
that it was a sign of the good to come from
quitting
I've never forgotten the struggle to find my quit now 12.8 years ago
But I stopped posting a bit ago. This is a thumbs-up post: all is well, recovery continues, and keeping a strong foundation continues!
For the longest time in my quit, I worked to find something I had not felt since I was 25 years old—to be entirely free and completely independent of cigarette smoking. A full letting go.
I used to write regularly about quitting on this Google Blog, checking in once or twice a year. Even as the tone of my blogs turned happier, all those years felt like I was still actively experiencing a major, heavy recovery. Though recovery remains a powerful, quiet influence in my day-to-day life, these days I no longer have to work so damn hard!!!
The Price of Addiction, The Responsibility of Recovery
I am absolutely fierce about protecting this hard-won smobriety. It still must be just one day at a time for me.
After all, I quit at 54 years old with over three decades of smoking behind me. When you spend most of your life tied to an addiction, you learn to trust the wisdom of eternal vigilance. The work gets lighter, but the guard stays up.
Why I Am Checking In Today
I guess that is exactly why I've logged back in today:
- To practice quititude: Taking a conscious moment to be deeply grateful for the second chance to be free from addiction.
- To acknowledge the journey: Looking back at my early blogs reminds me vividly of the steep price of addiction. Being that crazed was not fun at all!!!
- To honor the community: I am still an active member at BecomeAnEx.org, because supporting others reminds me of my own ongoing responsibility to my recovery.
I never get tired of building a stronger foundation, I don't ever want to forget what it took to quit.
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